I have seven different drafts that I need to finish and post. I have homework to do. I need to go running. I need to pack my lunch. I need to clean my room. I need to finish my letters of happiness for Twitter. I need to get my camera fixed. I need to finish a pile of unfinished projects.
Lately, this is how my mind has been running. I feel like I'm caught in a constant stream of things I NEED to do. (Admittedly, some of them are more of wants...) But recently I've had close to zero motivation. I actually haven't posted for months, because I've been feeling like I am not an example of positivity or determination, or really anything. I haven't wanted to write up a blog post, because I don't want to give advice that I'm not even taking myself.
Anyway, I've had quite a bit on my mind lately. I feel as though I'm trying to truly find myself. One of my posts was about things that I've learned so far during Sophomore year, and I'm here to tell you that my whole concept of the lessons learned was way off. Of course, I still believe & agree with everything I wrote, but there is so much more to high school than just meeting people and having a positive attitude.
Since September, I've learned about true friendship (both good & not so good aspects), loving others, understanding and supporting others while they struggle, vulnerability, pride, speaking my mind, (verbalizing things that are of importance to me) listening to others, accepting the choices that other people make, the importance and value of time, service that comes from the heart, and most importantly, loving and accepting myself the way I am.
The title of this post is how I feel most days. (Shout out to Twenty One Pilots.) I really do care about what other people think of me. And honestly, that can either be a great thing, or a very poisonous one. Let's be real, I care about my appearance, who likes me, who doesn't like me, how others view me. But I've been doing a lot of thinking, and I've just learned that as long as you like yourself and the choices you makes, you can be happy.
I'm not gonna lie and say that I don't wish I was more fit, more confident, taller, kinder, etc. But I love myself. I like my quirks and the little things that make me Heather Ann Peterson. I like my taste in music, I love rollerskating, I absolutely love my dreams. I love how my trials have transformed me & made me into a completely different person than I was 2 years ago. I like my mind, and the things I think about, and the way my brain works. I love knowing about the potential I have in this life.
"Our Heavenly Father sees our real potential. He knows things about us that we do not know ourselves. He prompts us during our lifetime to fulfill the measure of our creation, to live a good life, and to return to His presence... Let us resolve to follow the Savior and work with diligence to become the person we were designed to become. Let us listen to and obey the promptings of the Holy Spirit. As we do so, Heavenly Father will reveal to us things we never knew about ourselves. He will illuminate the path ahead and open our eyes to see our unknown and perhaps unimagined talents."
-Dieter F. Uchtdorf
I am fascinated with this earth. I spend hours marveling over the vastness of the universe that we've been given. But out of everything we've been blessed with, the most important is the gift of life. I've seen a tweet floating around Twitter recently that says something along the lines of, "How cool is it that the same God that created galaxies & mountains & puppies looked at you and thought the world needed one of you too."
God created you. He is perfect & eternal. He made you. And a perfect, eternal, loving, merciful God does not make mistakes.
Lately, this is how my mind has been running. I feel like I'm caught in a constant stream of things I NEED to do. (Admittedly, some of them are more of wants...) But recently I've had close to zero motivation. I actually haven't posted for months, because I've been feeling like I am not an example of positivity or determination, or really anything. I haven't wanted to write up a blog post, because I don't want to give advice that I'm not even taking myself.
Anyway, I've had quite a bit on my mind lately. I feel as though I'm trying to truly find myself. One of my posts was about things that I've learned so far during Sophomore year, and I'm here to tell you that my whole concept of the lessons learned was way off. Of course, I still believe & agree with everything I wrote, but there is so much more to high school than just meeting people and having a positive attitude.
Since September, I've learned about true friendship (both good & not so good aspects), loving others, understanding and supporting others while they struggle, vulnerability, pride, speaking my mind, (verbalizing things that are of importance to me) listening to others, accepting the choices that other people make, the importance and value of time, service that comes from the heart, and most importantly, loving and accepting myself the way I am.
The title of this post is how I feel most days. (Shout out to Twenty One Pilots.) I really do care about what other people think of me. And honestly, that can either be a great thing, or a very poisonous one. Let's be real, I care about my appearance, who likes me, who doesn't like me, how others view me. But I've been doing a lot of thinking, and I've just learned that as long as you like yourself and the choices you makes, you can be happy.
I'm not gonna lie and say that I don't wish I was more fit, more confident, taller, kinder, etc. But I love myself. I like my quirks and the little things that make me Heather Ann Peterson. I like my taste in music, I love rollerskating, I absolutely love my dreams. I love how my trials have transformed me & made me into a completely different person than I was 2 years ago. I like my mind, and the things I think about, and the way my brain works. I love knowing about the potential I have in this life.
"Our Heavenly Father sees our real potential. He knows things about us that we do not know ourselves. He prompts us during our lifetime to fulfill the measure of our creation, to live a good life, and to return to His presence... Let us resolve to follow the Savior and work with diligence to become the person we were designed to become. Let us listen to and obey the promptings of the Holy Spirit. As we do so, Heavenly Father will reveal to us things we never knew about ourselves. He will illuminate the path ahead and open our eyes to see our unknown and perhaps unimagined talents."
-Dieter F. Uchtdorf
I am fascinated with this earth. I spend hours marveling over the vastness of the universe that we've been given. But out of everything we've been blessed with, the most important is the gift of life. I've seen a tweet floating around Twitter recently that says something along the lines of, "How cool is it that the same God that created galaxies & mountains & puppies looked at you and thought the world needed one of you too."
God created you. He is perfect & eternal. He made you. And a perfect, eternal, loving, merciful God does not make mistakes.
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