DAY FIVE
First off, I decided that it makes more sense for me to publish my posts the day after I live them. Lol. Sometimes I forget that I can't always get everything done when I want them done.
Second, I realize that despite what I just said, this post is still a day late. Life goes on.
To be completely honest, this was a very hard day for me. Not because something went wrong, but because I made it hard.
In Seminary we were told to think about how we felt on the worst day of our lives. Now I've had quite a few bad days in the past, but there were two days that really stuck out.
The problem wasn't that I thought about those difficult days, the really painful thing was the fact that I had suppressed certain memories so much that reopening those wounds was total agony.
Id like to say that I am a fairly happy person. Sure I have not-so-wonderful days, but even when I don't feel my best I don't like to classify my days as "bad days."
Between my 8th and 9th grade years I changed completely. My parents divorced at the end of 8th grade, and so much changed. I don't want to dwell on that, but basically that part of my life made me who I am today. It's why I don't like to cause problems or be sad. And even though that can sometimes be a very good thing, it can also be so detrimental to my health.
Thinking about my worst days and breaking down made me remember that you shouldn't keep things boiling up inside of you unless you're prepared to explode. That even though I've gotten past some hard things, it doesn't mean they no longer exist.
Well I'm here to tell you that Jesus Christ atoned for our pains and sufferings! And it's true, we SUFFER! And even if you are far away from Christ or you don't want to be close to Him, He still suffered for you. And He would do it all over again for you individually.
God is good. Jesus Christ is good. You are going to be okay. I am going to be okay.
You are great.
(p.s. shoutout to Peyton Gerber because he makes gloomy days a little bit brighter.)
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